| TIME FLIES
Wow. I can’t believe how quickly the holiday
season passed by. Scratch that… I can’t
believe how quickly this year went by. It seemed as if yesterday, I was still
stuck at CAMS for hours on end trying to be “ms well rounded”. Now, I’m stuck in Irvine for
hours on end trying to be your “average college 1st year student”.
Dyam… despite the fact that 2006 was a very eventful
and memorable year, it sure as hell was an unforgettable bitch.
For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting and I
realized that 2006 allowed me to not only realize the changes in myself, but
also realize the changes in others. So here are my top ten new years’
resolutions. I hope I actually keep them this time…
TOP TEN NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS
1.) Keep my faith
in god alive and strong
Through whatever and whenever, the
Lord has always been there for me. I don’t ever want to lose that connection.
Therefore, I realized that I need to make time, no matter how busy I am, to
make that connection. I know I won’t be able to go to church regularly, but I
would like to try to go every once and a while regardless of what city I’m
in.
2.) Spend more
time with family and friends
Man… I thought that after
graduating high school and entering a new environment, such as college [UCI
anteaters zot.zot.zot lol], that I would have a lot more leisure time to spend
with those that I truly care about. But, in reality, I’ve been a lot more
occupied being a full-time student, juggling, a part time job, and competing and dancing for a professional
hip hop team [CG you know!], that I’ve been MIA for half of the year. But
frealz, I want to keep in touch with my CAMS KIDS, SLY homies, LBC peepz,
Lumagui FAM BAM, and bestfriends. Frealz, I know that yall know that my lifestyle
is busy, but dyam I’ll always make time for you. So please, I don’t care if
it’s through e-mail, aim, myspace, facebook, text message, phone call, in
person, whatever. I’ll be here. So hit me up if your down to chill, talk, catch
up on life, vent, or even if itz jz to say “hi.” 3.) fit in fitness
Just like everyone else, I want to
fit in fitness and stay fit. Manng… fuck the “freshman 15” I want it to work
the other way around lol.
4.) Be happy
Just in general, yall know that my
normal mood was either sad or depressive. I want to genuinely be happy. One
wise grasshopper [MJD] once told me that for every negative thing in my life,
there will be 10 positive things. Another wise grasshopper [Prince] once told
me that as you live life… you only remember the things you love. Therefore, I
need to be thankful for what I am blessed with and I will try to be happier.
5.)
Learn something New
I’m 18 and legal. Tee Hee so
basically, hit me up cz I’m down for whatever. Let’s go skydiving, bungee jumping,
snowboarding, skiing, etc. Teach me how to speak in another language or play an
instrument, etc.
6.) Help others
Gotta focus on giving rather than
receiving. Eventually, Karma will come back around right? [jz read my fav. Poem
entitled “When you Die” It made me see that despite all of the things that you
have or will have achieved in life, it won’t mean anything when you die.
Because when you die, God won’t ask you what you did to help yourself, he’ll
ask you about what you did to help others. Therefore, life shouldn’t always be
about “me” it should be about “you,” or “us.” So I’ll be your go-2 gurl, your
release, hit me up if you need me. Give me a call if you want to vent or talk.
If you need advice or need someone to just listen to you. If you want to get
away from home or need tutoring. Whatever it may be, I’ll be here.]
7.) Get organized
Time management.
Nuff said.
8.) Get on the honors list
I didn’t go to a
high-ranked-nerdy-math and science-prep school for 4 years for nothing. Shit, I want to keep my GPA up while doing
all the things that I love and are important to me. I also want to maintain a
high enough GPA to make the deans list and honors list.
9.) Save money
I realized that I have a pretty
decent job that pays well. Shit I’m 18 and I’m getting about $27 dollars an
hour. That’s almost as much as someone with a Masters Degree. With that being
said, I’m also a broke college student who wants to grow up and own her own
apartment in the near future. So I don’t
want to leech off of my parents money. I want to become more independent and
not rely on my parents to support me financially. I know they work hard enough
to send my brother and me to college. Plus, they’re getting old. I don’t want
to shorten their life span.
10.)
Be an awesome girlfriend
My homie once told me that “I’m
not the type you spit game to; I’m the lil lady that you’d give your last name
to”. I’ve always wanted to find someone that I can give my all to. I wanted to
find someone who makes me genuinely happy. Someone I can feel comfortable with,
who doesn’t care how I look, that I can be myself around, who will love me
regardless of what I do, say, or what happens, who will continue to support me
no matter how absurd or outrageous my goals or dreams are, who will be there
for me , put up with my ups and downs, who will genuinely care for me, and be
mine. This year, I found someone who has
a lot of potential to hold me down. So
Brian Kim, BK, beb. I know you don’t take promises lightly. But, I promise to
do everything and anything to keep our relationship strong. Thanks beb for
everything. You mean so much to me. <3 muah.
BEFORE AND AFTER
With 2006 coming to an end, I’ve
realized that despite failing many times, I’ve
accomplished many things. I was blessed to have done things that I have
never done before such as graduate High school, celebrate my debut,
compete in Pageants, win Pageant Titles [LBC’s Junior Miss, LA’s Junior Miss], compete
and Dance for a Professional Hip Hop Team [Common Ground], Perform a lyrical
solo on stage for a Talent Show blind-folded [lol yes. 2nd place], Break
hearts, have all my medical records disappear without a trace, and become very
ill. I’ve been blessed with supportive family and friends [esp my bestfriend
mr. moo lol]. I’ve also come to realize that life is
a beautiful struggle. I gotta live and learn from the hardships I face.
I learned that “success is the sweetest revenge”right sajili? I gotta be
thankful for the bitches and haters that bring me down, because I realized that
the more haters I have, the more I am doing right in my life. I’ve been told
that 2007 will be a better year for me. I’m anticipating the new year and I’m
ready for it. I’m finally letting go of all the shit in 2006 that
brings me down, there’s a reason why they/it/whatever didn’t make it to my
future right?
goodbye 2006 and hello 2007 |
